Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Home Alone

I was sitting here with my morning latte when I heard some unusual sounds. What is it? Oh my god, those are my thoughts. MY thoughts. No questions. No requests. No television or music blaring in the background. No conversations, or arguments breaking through into my consciousness. It is as though I've entered a foreign country. The quiet is palpable. And delicious.

My family has been off doing other things for a couple of days and I have the house to myself. What a concept! Apart from the birds, the cats, the fish and the dog I have no one else to prepare meals for but myself. Yesterday I ran a quick errand and then spent the whole day—yes the WHOLE day—writing. I forgot to eat breakfast, ate a late lunch and skipped dinner when I realized that I had to get ready to leave for my writing group in the evening. I ate dinner at 11:00 pm and wrote until 2:00 am.

Now I'm not saying I'd want to live like this all the time. I love my family and the energy that surrounds them. But every now and then (okay, maybe a bit more than that) it would be so refreshing to have some alone time. In the two days they've been gone I've lost two pounds. I've written a new chapter for my book. I've run errands, done laundry and attended a writing workshop. And I've allowed thoughts that had been bumped aside by the jostling of family life to bubble to the top and be scooped up and examined.

I guess this is my own private version of a staycation.

6 comments:

  1. When I married Greg, my Mom told him, "You need to know something, Aleta needs alone time every now and then." He took it to heart and understood. We all need that "quiet" time to hear our own thoughts and relax. I'm happy for you!

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  2. I find peace with being alone sometimes too. It's refreshing to be only with your thoughts sometimes. It's always a welcome change for me from the hustle and bustle of daily life.

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  3. I have known for a very long time that I enjoy my own company. I'm not anti-social but sometimes I just don't want to be bothered by anybody other than myself. I say - enjoy the hell out of it!

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  4. So glad you are getting some of that much needed quiet time. I hope those characters in your book are at least whispering so you can still hear the birds and the silence.

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  5. My first whole day alone this school year was yesterday! I had to laugh, though, because my husband came home for lunch. I think he thought I would be lonely!

    Glad you got a bit of quiet time. We all need that every once in a while.

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